Penis memories from before you realized you were small?

[joey]

Some other threads delve into when you realized you were small, but the "before time" isn't really discussed.

I remember a 3rd grade school camping trip in the mountains where all of the boys had to shower that evening.  It was  3 classes of about 25 (75 kids total, so about half male would make 37 boys.  We all stripped down at the same time in a change area - crowded and such.  Then we stood in line naked to get to the showers, got clean, then went back to the change area to dry off and get dressed.  I remember there being at least 4 high school aged boys watching us (no male teachers).  

It was so fun to be naked in a group like that.  I felt no shame.  I didn't see any boys that made me think "WOW".  It was just fun.

[Guest]

The very first time I saw other boys naked, changing for a pre-school backyard pool party, I immediately realized I was very small by comparison.

Before that I played with my dick some with no knowledge it was small.  I remember being reprimanded for playing with it and to keep my hands above the covers and out of my pajama bottoms!  I don't recall erections back then.

[Red Scott]

Up until around 14 I didn't care about being naked in front of whoever, in fact I thought nothing of nudity even though puberty had my penis well on its way to adult size. It was my mum who told me at that age that I was obviously growing up now, so I should consider being completely naked only in the bathroom or my bedroom. From then on I thought more about nudity but still I wasn't shy in school showers etc. 

Up until 15 - 16 I thought nothing of wearing speedos on the beach or when swimming, even though they give away what you have, I just never considered that. Once I became more aware and other boys caught up or overtook me I became more self conscious, especially from 17 - 18. Being a grower and having insecurities on my flaccid size, I never wore speedos again and stopped showering in full view in public showers etc. Its remained this way up to the present day. 

It's a shame but I often wonder how I'd have turned out had my mum never made that original comment. 

[Hot Showers]

I did not really realize/accept that I have a small penis until after I came out and started to have sex with other guys in my late 20's (in the early 90's). I thought the first guy that I was with was huge. Thought the same about the 2nd guy. and the 3rd... you know where this is going. Prior to that, the only erect penises that I saw were in porn, so I just assumed that they were much bigger than everyone else. I, of course, had measured mine and knew that the numbers "sounded" small compared to the numbers that people talked about as big, average, or small, but I assumed this was just because everyone added a bit to reported numbers. Prior to that, I was more worried about outing myself by getting an erection during casual nudity, so size was the last thing on my mind. Even after realizing/acknowledging that I have a small dick, I still enjoy being seen naked

[Devil28]

I never was remotely embarrassed to be seen naked as a child. The P.E in primary school never requred us to have showers or chaning really. It wasn't until secondary school we had proper P.E. What i recall is every single boy's willy looking the same in terms of size before puberty, so size was never something I ever even thought of at all.

It wasn't untill a year or two in to puberty I realised the difference.

Edited August 19, 2018 by Devil28

[kc11]

I also didn't notice my penis size until junior high showers.  There were hairy huge dongs, and mine was a hairless stub.  Before that, I didn't think about it at all.

[Gezr69]

Probably before high school they were all just different looking dicks.
A couple of "socks", but the majority were helmets.

Most of the merit back then was ranked on the ability to pee the furthest up the urinal or a paling fence [usually picket fence in US].
Don't recall much mental reference to size in my single digit years.

It wasn't until the High School years approached that I started noticing a lot more size & shape variance.
 

[notawhopper]

When I was about 4 or 5, I got poison ivy on my junk really bad. I don't know how I got, probably pissing on it, not knowing what it was.  I was put in the hospital and had nurses putting some kind of lotion on it several times a day.  I remember being very small but was not concerned at all. I don't remember if I got hard or not. This may be why I am so shy about being seen naked now. I am also very careful too watch for poison ivy.

[Devil28]

I always remember all prepubescent boys tackle looking exactly the same. Never saw a circumcised guy until I had the internet at 18 or so.

I had no embarrassment at all being seen naked until my early teens.

[Jgarg]

In grammar school I had two experiences that made me realize I was small. The first was seeing a friend whip out his dick to pee. It was like a baby’s arm coming out of his pants. Mine was like a nub. I was shocked and a little confused  I don’t think I thought a lot about size to that point.  

The second experience was a year or two later at a sleep over in 8th grade. I still had a tiny, toddler dick and no pubic hair. I remember changing in a room with the other boys and seeing mounds of pubic hair and large cocks. I was so ashamed. This, and other bad experiences in high school, still bother me today and are probably the basis for my enjoyment of SPH. 

[Guest]

when I was a boy up to about 9 I saw my cousins dicks my age and friends i would spend the night with i didnt think about size but I did pay very clsoe attention to other pre adolescent boys junk for differences.  From about 5 on I knew i had an interest in boys but didnt realize what it was all about.  My mom would put me and my cousins in a bath together when boys.  About 7 me and the boy that was i guess my best friend would take baths together and i would feel of his penis in a scientific way lol and he would get erect and i notice i was erect just feeling of his.  We did this alot when we were by ourselves he liked me doing it and I liked feeling of him.   About 9 I saw the next door neighbors penis, he was 15 and his of course was adult size.  I was astonished at his and led to a new phase lol.

[hunboy]

The first thing what i remember was a swimming session in preschool when I was 5 which was only performed two or three times. All the kids were nude girls and boys, so at firts it was a bit akward but mostly because girls were there too, but later it didn't bother us at all. It was only one boy who i remember had a much bigger dick there, bigger as everyone else, noticeably hanging down.

I was swimming often with my father when i was 8-10 and at the pool there was a big open communal shower and locker room which was always crowded, there was the first time I saw the "variety" of cocks and I remember that the size was not that interesting for me at that time, especially not the difference between my tiny dick and the others (I tought at that time it will get bigger…)

At this times and at other ocassional oppurtunities where i was nude with friends I had no embarrassment at all being seen naked. This changed in my teens of course as by many of you.

[Jojojojo]

I think I only didn't care for a brief period where I was proud to grow pines but before I noticed other sizes. I also had a very large head early that felt good. But I think a major factor was big cock porn was not such a thing. I fell like old porn did not focus so much on guys cocks. Now its an essential part of most porn. But thats a whole different topic.

[avgjoe913]

I have some very hazy memories of changing into swimsuits in a locker room full of other boys at camp - must have been seven or so. It was the first time I'd ever had to change like that around other boys and I do remember realizing that many other guys didn't look like mine - some were uncut, and some were clearly longer, as mine was pretty much just a head. I don't recall being blown away by it or anything like that - I was obviously way too young to know that penis size was a "thing" or even to worry about it. As I got older, like 4th-5th grade, my friends and I would play truth and dare and compare/contrast, and by that time the differences were more apparent and we obviously all knew that some guys were bigger than others. But still, at that point I just assumed that everything mostly evened out after puberty and didn't stress out about being small or worry about letting my friends see it, even though I was always the tallest kid in class and all of that.

Even later, I had a friend who became a jerkoff buddy, starting right as we were hitting puberty and then continuing after it had affected both of us - to varying degrees! That's a whole other story, but I'd say it's when I really started to notice my size.

[TinyJock]

I remember changing at the Y and at summer camp when I was 8-9-10. My cock was super super small. The whole thing couldn't even have been as big as the tip of my baby finger (when the tip of my baby finger was even smaller). The other kids called me "Freckle Dick". I just laughed along. It didn't bother me. I assumed things would change when I hit puberty and I'd have what most the Dads I saw had. I only really paid attention to size when I hit puberty. Although it grew, it was still super super small compared to my buddies. 

[Guest]

5 hours ago, TinyJock said:

I remember changing at the Y and at summer camp when I was 8-9-10. My cock was super super small. The whole thing couldn't even have been as big as the tip of my baby finger (when the tip of my baby finger was even smaller). The other kids called me "Freckle Dick". I just laughed along. It didn't bother me. I assumed things would change when I hit puberty and I'd have what most the Dads I saw had. I only really paid attention to size when I hit puberty. Although it grew, it was still super super small compared to my buddies. 

Yeah, my flaccid was amazingly tiny when I was very young, pre-school.  I remember marveling how small it was after I saw a lot of other kids changing in a basement before a pool party.  Mine was like a tiny, empty flap of skin.  All the other kids' dicks looked full, some hanging, others, not.  All thicker.   

Some of the kids talked about other kids dicks though I can't recall what they said.  I don't think there was any ridiculing, just uninhibited comparison type talk.

I fled the downstairs changing area claiming I had to go to the bathroom so no one would see mine.  I remember thinking I'd like to keep watching the other boys so I could study their dicks, but needed to escape.  I remember fantasizing out one of the boys dick who had some hang already, wishing I could be like him.

Edited January 25, 2019 by Guest

[Allen43]

One particular memory I have before I became aware that I actually had a tiny penis was when my mom walked in the bathroom when I was in the tub. I think I was eight years old. I had an erection for no particular reason, other than just touching it while I washed that is. That happened to me a lot actually. I just stood up, with tiny erection pointing straight up, and asked my mom why my thing got hard and stiff when I touched it or played with it. She turned around and looked at me. I remember her smiling broadly at me. She said something about that being normal and not to play with it if I didn’t want it getting stiff. She then came over to me, knelt down and took my tiny stiffie between her fingers and inspected it. She gave it a thorough looking over as well as my tight little scrotum. My thing stayed rock hard too.  Thinking back on it there was nothing sexual to it at all, not that I could detect anyway. After she finished her inspection she kissed me on the cheek, smiled and said “you’re fine sweetie”. And that was that. I do remember thinking to myself that I sort of liked her touching me there, but that was the only time anything like that happened.

[TinyJock]

On 1/25/2019 at 5:58 AM, Allen43 said:

One particular memory I have before I became aware that I actually had a tiny penis was when my mom walked in the bathroom when I was in the tub. . . 

When I was in my junior year of high school, my mother and I took a trip to stay with my Dad who was away on business. I was basically fully mature by that time, having matured earlier than most kids my age. I was 6'3", well-built and a star athlete, hairy-chested and shaving ever day. However, I was (and am) hung like a chipmunk; soft, barely the head poking out of my pubic hair. 

I'd always been extremely shy about being naked in front of my father. Correction, paranoid! For some reason I never had the same concerns with my mother. I remember getting out of the shower and changing in front of her without any self-consciousness whatsoever. I even remember getting out of bed with a morning woody in my underwear and not thinking a thing about it. I would never have done that around my father. 

It's funny. I always had stage fright when it came to stripping down in front of other guys at school (though I never let on). However, unless it was a sexual situation (like on a date), I never had the same fears in front of girls. We had close family friends. One of the girls was my age. We were buddies. I remember changing into my bathing suit in front of her without any hesitation. 

Edited January 27, 2019 by TinyJock

[Guest]

Because of my glacial and very late puberty and only secondarily because of my small penis, I never dated until my Jr. year in College.  Most of my peers were dating since 8th Grade as was encouraged by the Schools with dances, etc.  We were even taught "dating ettiquette" back then in 8th grade.

I remember when, probably in my Jr. year of High School, my mother said it was a shame to miss out on all the fun dating in School just because you might have a pimple now and then or a small penis, making the traditional small penis sign. 

I just stoically ignored her, amazed she couldn't see my puberty was extremely late and obviously resulted in a lack of motivation and deep feelings of inferiority.  It was a blow to suspect that somehow she knew my penis was still very small as well.  I still thought it would grow as puberty barely started in my Sophmore year.

It was unclear whether she thought the 2nd problem was present in me or it was just an example or a stab in the dark?  Or assumed it because my father had a small penis?  I only rarely had a few pimples.  My father never dated until he was 30 and then married right away.

Edited January 27, 2019 by Guest

[Allen43]

@overthehill Your mom probably knew would be my guess. As I got older I became more and more aware of the fact that my mom knew a lot more about me than I would ever have thought. Although my mom never mentioned it to me directly I’m almost sure she was well aware that my penis was much smaller than normal. She had to be aware of it when she “inspected” my erection that time when I was in the tub. It seemed to me to be quite a thorough inspection too I might add. And then there was that time when I was twelve that she caught and watched me, without me knowing she was there, masturbating on the couch when I thought he was in her bed asleep.  Again, she had to notice just how small my penis and testicles were. I think mom’s usually  know about things like that but some mom’s, like mine, just chose not to mention it to me or to ignore it all together.

[Guest]

5 hours ago, Allen43 said:

@overthehill Your mom probably knew would be my guess. 

Yeah, she sent me to a Dr. about my long delayed puberty, but said almost nothing about it when I told her the Dr. was an idiot, claiming the problem was lack of exercise.   The Dr. must have reported my really tiny penis as I recall him examining it carefully.  Yeah!  Exercise would provoke puberty and dick growth?

I do know she had dreams of being a super athlete and wildly attractive to girls.   She couldn't let her dreams go.

Believe it or not, once, she talked to the basketball cheerleaders about why they didn't find me attractive.  They said I wasn't interested, probably thinking I was gay.  I don't know if it was clear to them I had a slow puberty.  Anyway, why would they care?  They had every guy in the school drooling after them.

She reported it to me like it was a "go ahead" sign from them.  Yeah, she was simple minded.  Thought "denial" was the solution to all problems.

[Tsoren]

I enjoyed a very idyllic childhood.  We lived about fifteen miles out of town right next to my cousins.  Our fathers built a swimming pool between the two houses with a nice deck and gazebo.  During the summer my younger brother, my two younger cousins and I would spend our summer days playing in the pool.  

Early on, for some reason, one of them didn't have a swimsuit, so went nude.  The rest of us thought that was a great idea so we all stripped off our suits.  For the next three or four years we spent our time at the pool naked.  People rarely came out to our place and even when they did we didn't pay them much attention and just continued playing in the pool naked.

All four of us were intact, so we probably figured everyone was just like that.  But where my brother and I had long, skinny penises that hung down, our two cousins both had penises that were shorter but thicker and stuck straight out.  

Our grandparents had come to the US from Norway shortly after our fathers were born.  While our fathers didn't speak much Norwegian, our grandparents did.  So we would pick up some Norwegian words.  The Norwegian word for chubby is lubben and the Norwegian word for slender is slanke.  

So jokingly my brother and I called our cousins "lubbies" because of their chubby penises and they called us "slankies" because of our skinny ones.  it wasn't done as a put-down, it was done out of fun.  So if we had play-fights in the pool it was often the lubbies vs the slankies.

  This changed a little in the summer before I entered seventh grade.  My oldest cousins was a year younger, and we noticed his penis was growing.  It started getting a little longer and a little thicker.  My brother made the comment that he wasn't lubben anymore, he was fett (Norwegian for fat).  Then we noticed the hairs appearing above his penis and by the end of the summer he had a small bush.

Since our one-room country school was closing, we were bussed into town for school that fall.  And of course with the open showers in seventh grade, my idyllic childhood came crashing to an end as I quickly realized their were significant size differences.

[HurtbutHopeful]

I really don’t have memories of not thinking I was small. I was 7 when I saw my grandfather’s huge dong and 8 when I was sexually assaulted by a high schooler who was fairly hung when flaccid. When I was 10 I had fallen into a dried up creek bed and was covered in black mud from head to toe. My best friend’s brother carried me  (I had gotten banged up when I fell) back to their house (where I was staying). He told me to get undressed and waited watched me until I got in the shower. Then the next thing I know he’s in there with me. I was super freaked out and washed quickly but before I got out I saw his boner and i thought it was huge (and really hairy!) though looking back it was probably average. 

When I was 11 (6th grade) in gym for the first time a good friend of mine was dressing out and I saw his dick. This is the guy who had a mustache by seventh grade. He already  pubes and was hung af. 

I’ve always known I was small and unfortunately many other people did too!

[new2day]

I don't remember being shy at all when was a pre teen, I'd often go swimming with friends so we'd get changed together without any shame. First memory I have of feeling insecure was at secondary/high school... I was a nearly 11 months younger than many of my peers, and at that age seeing guys with bigger and hairier dicks was a bit of a surprise. I avoided gym sessions for several years as I could just go straight home to shower.

At college and university I never really thought about it, I really got into playing racquet sports and martial arts for a while. The university had quite old style gang showers, as did the local swimming pool. So it was very common to be wandering about naked and showering with others. Most I saw were same as me, a little shrivelled after sport, very few large swinging dicks in my experience.

So it was only when internet access became easy that I started seeing big cocks, primarily in porn. When I think back, it really was quite poisonous to self esteem. Saying that, I always told myself there's nothing I can do, so just get on with life. In some ways it spurned me on being average and unashamed of being seen, so I've never let it stop me. I've always been happy in my own skin, often spend time naked when its warm enough, and I go to nude swims and naturist clubs/beaches.