deli_cinq5 Posted November 12, 2007 Report Share Posted November 12, 2007 Size- 6 and a bit inches erect (fully hard good day- not everyday though), 4.75 circumference Some of you may remember me, some may not. A quick run down: I had been dating a girl for a year and a half or so. Around the 3 month mark I found out that she had slept with 10 guys or so and had various other flings. This irritated me. Next, I find out the few previous boyfriends before me were all around the 8inch mark. This destroyed me. Up until that point sex had been the best I've ever had. For her she said the same- she had never felt so connected and had never felt so liberated sexually by being with me because i could make her feel so good, I could make her feel comfortable, I could bring her to orgasm all the time and my dick is and always was "perfect". Didn't matter. How could it matter? She was with guys who could always make her feel more than me, who could always "give her more dick", fill her up, and in my minds eye subdue her with the dominance of having more than I will ever have. The fact of the matter is, this entire process of thought was extremely damaging and very very poisonous. I would constantly ask my girlfriend for reassurance. I was always seeking reassurance and feeling constantly inadequate and upset. This would carry over in every facet of our relationship. I ended up working with one of her exs who was 6 foot 4 and 8inches- seeing him would leave my angry for the day, bitter and resentful. I couldn't function right, i was always worried and bothered, and I simply couldnt be happy. I'd have to ask constantly if i was big enough, and evrything that had happened was weakening her spirit and damaging my esteem. One day about 2 months ago I got upset with my gf again over one of her ex's trying to talk to her. It wasn't so much that he tried to talk to her, it's that it was a reminder of everyone she had been with and what she had done. We got into a fight, and like that it was over. Not entirely like that, but it was over. After being here at measurection I knew, just knew that it was all me. It was my self-esteem I couldn't find, it was my confidence I had lost. I went ahead and purchased a book called SELF-ESTEEM, Third Edition by Matthew McKay and Patrick Fanning. I consider myself to be a fairly strong willed and reasonable person- and buying a self help book is something I would have never considered. Point is, after we broke up I had to start the soul searching. I had to start facing everything it was that was eating away at me. Three weeks after we broke up, she started seeing some other guy. Some other guy who was taller, better looking, more athletic, and older and obviously the more mature. Time's have been hard, they have been long and they have been fast. I've had ups and downs, mood swings and the works. Thing is nothing has been all that easy since we broke up. I have been in relationships for the last 5 years and only now have dipped into the single life. As soon as we broke up I needed a distraction. I started working out, I started using mantra's to help build what I am and embrace what makes me who I truly am. As school started up again (university), I found a new social outlet to gain my confidence and become myself. Over the last months with hard work and thinking about it day in and day out you have to start knowing and believing your potential. I started setting goals, both long term and short, and have started to live my life with confidence and being outgoing. Next thing I know, in one of my classes of 200 people I'm at the front giving an impromptu presentation off the top of my head making my professor, and everyone else laugh. I'm working the room, I'm being nothing but outgoing and strong willed. After that, girls were coming up to me, guys were shaking my hand in introduction. For that moment, from that day on, I was essentially the alpha male. That may have been off on a bit of a tangent, but I am the alpha male. Confidence doesn't come right away, nor does it come with the size of your dick. I'm not small, but I'm not big. However, if you walk into a room essentially believing you have the biggest dick (without being needless arrogant and simply becoming a big dick), and you're both friendly, approachable and comfortable in your skin even if youre not- you will become it. When I found out my ex was seeing someone else I took a girl out who I knew had liked me for a long time. She had been with more guys then my ex had and has seen some of the biggest dicks around. I watched porn with her (which at first made me uncomfortable being the smallest there) and mentioned being slightly intimidated. She said the big ones aren't all they're cracked up to be and that it didnt matter. Point is, it matters to some but not most. She saw my dick that night, she enjoyed thoroughly my dick that night. Another small step in becoming comfortable with who I am. For the first time I took a shower at our school gym. I walked around proud and confident in a room full of many naked men of all sizes. I could have showered in my boxers with the other guys, but why should I? I'm definitely a grower and not a show-er, but who cares? Who's looking? Who's judging? If they are, what's it to them? My first day in the class I became alpha, I met a girl. I've been speaking with her all semester. She broke up with her boyfriend two weeks ago because things weren't going well with them and we have the world in common. Her ex boyfriend was controlling, possessive, and in all respects insecure. So am I- or rather- so I was. I've been out with her twice already, we've fooled around a little bit, and I will be seeing her again tonight. She's what I'd called "OUT OF MY LEAGUE" haha by far- she's absolutely stunning- but she likes me. She broke up with her boyfriend to justify getting to know me more. Tonight I am heading over to stay in and watch a movie with her, and, if I get lucky, will be able to get naked and stand proudly with the most beautiful girl in the world, and, my AVERAGE penis. Thanks to everyone at measurection. The advice given here seemed impossible at first. Seemed so easy to give, but not to understand. Truth is it's hard to understand- but once you understand it, once you try to embrace it and you make the right steps to embracing it- the world is your oyster and you are who you are for a reason. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wandering Posted November 12, 2007 Report Share Posted November 12, 2007 Great story and good luck tonight. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bredero Posted November 13, 2007 Report Share Posted November 13, 2007 Best of luck tonight. Here's a thought....you mentioned that you imagine you have the biggest dick when you are in a room full of guys and this helps with your confidence. But when naked with a woman for the first time your confidence is sometimes cut because you are faced with the reality of the person seeing your average sized penis and you do not know how they will react When this happens....How about imagining that you own the building that you are currently in and also own everything in it? go as far as imagining that you own the whole block while you are walking up to her house!!!... try it and see if it helps with confidence? I am glad that you could free your mind and over come all obstacles that you had in the past. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wuerstchen Posted November 13, 2007 Report Share Posted November 13, 2007 If she's worth your time she isn't going to reject you because of your 6-inch penis, or even a 5-inch penis for that matter! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teh Tekman Posted November 13, 2007 Report Share Posted November 13, 2007 Awesome story man. Great to hear about someone taking they're life back. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted November 14, 2007 Report Share Posted November 14, 2007 Interesting, but discouraging for guys with an actual small penis. Interesting to hear what the "normal" struggle with penis size is like. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bredero Posted November 14, 2007 Report Share Posted November 14, 2007 Lloydbaker, at the end of the day, we are all men with penis problems... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deli_cinq5 Posted November 15, 2007 Author Report Share Posted November 15, 2007 *small* dick or not, I dare not even recall some of my past topic posts because in all honesty I was completely at the bottom- having very little self-esteem and being extremely unhappy with myself and my size. Point is though I still consider myself to have a small penis. Average or not, there are still many, many larger out there. The point of my post was to come clean with myself and this place in that I'm learning to accept everything I have for what it is. I'm also learning to make the right steps in order to change the things I can. As for my date the other night- a COMPLETE success! We haven't had sex yet as she'd prefer to take things slow (which I'm completely okay with), but I did however receive the best oral I've ever had. At first I admit I was a little nervous with her seeing me naked and I had a bit of stage fright. But, after some gentle coaxing with her tongue things became lively. I've opted to not ask her about her past and take things as they come. Part of realizing I had a problem was that I was always asking and trying to justify my size. I'm going to take things for face value and not delve into her past or anything that might come up that could stray me from my path. I'm not completely confident, but it comes with time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RodEnuf Posted November 15, 2007 Report Share Posted November 15, 2007 BRAVO, Deli! I hope everyone here pays attention to your final paragraph. It's an example of following the advice to behave as though you are self confident and after awhile the results will give you that self confidence. Alan G Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dreysek Posted November 15, 2007 Report Share Posted November 15, 2007 :waytogo: deli_cinq5. Glad you were confident enough to (eventually ) give it a go. Keep up the good work, and let us know how all this works out for you... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wandering Posted November 16, 2007 Report Share Posted November 16, 2007 As for my date the other night- a COMPLETE success! We haven't had sex yet as she'd prefer to take things slow (which I'm completely okay with), but I did however receive the best oral I've ever had. I'm glad things went well. I still find it funny the younger kids these days don't consider oral sex as actually being sex. To me it's a much more intimate act than intercourse, you're putting something in your mouth. But that's another topic.... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
livwiz Posted November 17, 2007 Report Share Posted November 17, 2007 Interesting to hear what the "normal" struggle with penis size is like. It's not about dick size. It's about confidence, in general. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
livwiz Posted November 17, 2007 Report Share Posted November 17, 2007 BRAVO, Deli! I hope everyone here pays attention to your final paragraph. It's an example of following the advice to behave as though you are self confident and after awhile the results will give you that self confidence. Alan G Exactly Alan! And this was an awesome story, one that I can relate to, as it parallels my own situation. I won't relate it here, as I have done so already on several occasions. The long and the short of it is, it's all in your head. I did the very same thing, and the transformation was almost overnight. Anybody can do it. "I think, therefore I am." Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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